Brace me one more day O God

Dear God,
Seeing those new born babies…
Seeing those pregnant ladies…
Sometimes makes me think…
When will you let that bless happens on me?
Why am I not worth enough to be a mother?
What should I do to ensure you?

Forgive me for asking those questions…
I`m weak, I'm vulnerable at some point…
But deep down I still believe…
You have a wonderful plan for me…

Brace me God,
Brace me so I would not cry, every time I hold a baby…
Brace me through all the tests, so I would not get tired…
Brace me to keep fight for it…
Just brace me one more day…

Late Night Prayer

Dear God, I get weary sometimes 

for remembering how I still end up with no baby here.. 

Forgive me for being upset when I saw pregnant lady.. 

Forgive me for questioned you everytime I saw babies.. 

Forgive me O God, for I being such a sinner for doubted you.. 

Let me always remember that you've planned my life to be beautiful in your way..